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This was pure and simple catharsis - I drew this image a few years ago, when I was suffering from a really bad depression. Somehow it felt better drawing it, giving it a shape and a form I could see and understand.

For me, a clinical depression is like a gash at the heart. Once there's an open wound, any tiny little hardship, problem or bad news becomes a seed that can easily take root and grow until it blooms black and horrible and painful inside, and you can't get it out without ripping out pieces of your heart along with it.

Even when it fades and goes away, there'll still be little scars, only they're on the inside, so you can't see them.

Somehow it helped making it beautiful.
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Uyr-Uka Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2011
Wow--this is amazing! Reading the meaning behind it even more depth. Somehow the face both shows and hides the true feelings.
silvestris Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2011
Thank you. It's a very personal piece. I'm glad you like it.
purplesinger Featured By Owner May 20, 2011
I like the way her hands sort of fade out, as if she'd pluck out the flower and "fix" herself if she could, but she doesn't have the power to all by herself.

Excellent, excellent work. :heart:
silvestris Featured By Owner May 21, 2011
Thank you. It's a meaningful piece for me, I'm glad you like it.
Lawenta Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I agree that giving those kind of deep-seated problems form and shape, whether only in one's imagination or on a canvas or paper, makes one understand and deal with them better. And catharsis is always a wonderful feeling. Rebirth of sorts...

Thank you for sharing such a personal picture.

I'm glad you seem better and better ever since then. I wish you lots of strenght, good friends and great purring company in the form of happy, healthy cats :)
silvestris Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2010
Thank you. :heart:
YyanaOni Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2010
Oh wow, this is very beautiful. I can really re-late. I hope you're feeling better. :pat:
silvestris Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2010
Thank you.
PockyPuck Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2010
I hear you, hon. :<

This is very beautiful. The small chains of hair, the shadowed eyes, the delicate way her hands try to brush the iris--I recognize that.

It helps to express it, I agree.
silvestris Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2010
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.
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